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心形圈

近期的我们

生机

终于。。渡过了危险期。。我即将毕业了。。应该可以顺利毕业了。。。很开心。。苦熬了三年。。我不是优异的学生。。终算可以过关的拉。。哈哈。。昨晚真的睡不着。。又打开电脑。。在检查可不可以。。还是不能。。。在失望之下看到生机。。终于可以了。。乍看之下。。我在想我做梦吗。。其实并不是很好。。可是是我三年来最好的一次。。。本来是担心睡不着变成开心的睡不着。。也担心他成绩如何。。昏昏欲睡中看到他的简讯。。也是不错成绩。。心里很替他开心。。他做到了。。所以我俩都很开心。。即将结束读书生涯。。还蛮舍不得。。因为有很多我们的快乐记忆。。和朋友阿。。一起辛苦的日子。。将来是靠自己。。没有朋友的依靠了。。一个人的时候总是比较吃力，辛苦。。。我会努力了。。。加油加油。。。

我的语录。。

微博。。是中国的面子书。。因为中国禁用面子书。。所以就拿微博代替了。。其实还蛮不错的。。我也有微博哦。。哈哈。。因为那里有很多明星。。他们会无时无刻发他们的最新消息在微博。。好让他们的粉丝可以更接近他们。。。蛮亲民的吗。。哈哈。。微博还有一个我个人特别喜欢的是微博经语录。。里面包括很多的经典句子。。爱情的，朋友的，生活的。。我觉得这可以勉励人们。。也会教会我们做人的道理。。还蛮不错的。。我都回在面子书分享。。不要以为是我感性。。其实我都是抄别人的。。。哈哈。。傻人有傻福。。是真的吗。。我真的要学习如何精明。。我很容易被骗。。单纯（朋友说的）哈哈。。可是以后的职场真的是宫心计。。我这样笨。。应该会被欺负的咯。。还是被人陷害。。哈哈。。好像很恐怖。。可是无论如何，都希望一切顺利。。明年是开始我的人生第一个计划。。赚钱大计。。没有钱，什么都做不到。。所以我要努力赚钱。。养活自己。。不要在成为家人的负担。。加油。。愉快的假期快要结束了。。新的学期要来临了。。很担心。。害怕。。不懂这次的成绩如何。。因为考试都被我搞砸了。。希望可以过关。。在一起相处的时间不多了。。真的要把握时间。。现在时间多我来说很重要。。尤其快乐的时间过得特别快。。我们要好好把握相处在一起的时间。。无论以后的我们是如何。。我都会记得我们曾经爱过。。。

我的好姐妹。。

听着“没关系”写部落格。。这首歌原本是首悲情歌曲。。可是每当我听时，我很想笑。。。哈哈。。就是因为她啦。。吴凯蕴。。你很光荣叻。。第一个朋友的名字出现在我的部落。。。哈哈。。我想她应该看不到。。这几天，真的非常开心。。姐妹们相聚。。我们真是从头笑到尾。。好像小学生一样。。笑声最大。。我们相识因该都有10年咯。。时间过得真快。。薇铃，淑雯是小学一年级的朋友。。其他都是中学时的同班同学。。慢慢开始熟络的。。他们包括慧芬，诗韵，凯蕴，韵儿，美恋，凯莉和玉贞。。能够拥有她们一班的好姐妹真的很欣慰。。做朋友也是种缘份。。现在的我们也各忙各的。。。大家有大家的生活。。以前我们都等待谁会先有男朋友。。现在都在等谁会先结婚。。时间过得真快。。以前天真活泼的我们。。现在已是女人了。。。还称不上是熟女。。哈哈。。因为大家好像疯婆一样。。哈哈。。可能在过几年。。因该是带自己的小朋友出来聚会了。。哈哈。。还蛮期待看朋友的结晶。。。真的希望她们有情人终成眷属。。人生无常。。会活几年都不知道。。所以要珍惜每分每秒。。和家人，朋友，情人相处在一起的时间。。人生才不会有遗憾。。。我也要祝福姐妹们。。完成他们的梦想。。希望我们会还有更多的聚会和旅游。。很期待下次的旅游。。爱你们。。。

m not a girl... not yet a woman

女人啊女人。。。女人最珍贵的是什么？？身材？？样貌？？异性缘？？以前的我是这样想。。可能年纪长了。。看法不同了。。虽然现在是21世纪的时代。。我还是觉得女人的矜持和尊严还是最珍贵的。。也不是说“调高来”的意思。。。有时女人真的需要这些伎俩来看看这男人到底是不是真心的。。女人心海底针。。男人心难测。。表面是绵羊。。背后是个狼。。。好恐怖。。我不是针对所有的男人。。可是世界还是存在着这样的人。。。把你时，什么甜言蜜语都说出口。。得到了，就变了不一样。。。有时还蛮为这些女人感到悲哀。。男人表面功夫做足。。。把女人都给蒙骗了。。在一起。。就要真心对待。。坦白。。如果这都做不到，何来的爱情甜蜜。。只是虚拟的爱情而已。。女人真的要带眼识人。。看清楚了再做选折也不迟。。。女人是要被疼爱。。呵护。。而不是代替品。。还是被糟蹋的。。最憎恨那些糟蹋女人的男人。。如果是女人心甘情愿的。。。那也无话可说。。如果一味着付出会有更多会的到回报的。。那就好。。如果还是一样的。。因该考虑看你身边的他是不是适合你。。。在一起。。不一定要找最好的。。适合自己的最重要。。勉强没幸福。。我真的相信这句话。。。潇洒的女人不易当。。真的拿得起就要放得下。。不要哭着说后悔。。我以前也以为应该可以的吧。。可是真的不简单。。要我放手。。除非真的是死心了。。哈哈。。以上言论是发自心底话。。也不是针对任何男女。。请不要对号入座。。。可是这些都是事实。。。世界上还是会有好男人。。。这是我非常相信的。。哈哈。。做个聪明又幸福的女人吧。。。祝福大家都幸福。。。。

想家。。。

10.02am....早晨。。熬过了这个艰辛的星期。。接下来的日子应该比较好过。。我从来没想过。。我会这样做。。。做什么。。哈哈。。我很想家。。恨不得快点回家。。什么都不要想。。像懒人一样。。什么事都不用想。。哈哈。。想念家人。。妈妈的饭菜。。朋友们。。。不管了。。要回家了。。哈哈。。这星期还有考试和报告要交。。哈哈。。懒惰叻。。这个学期快要结束了。。也代表我就快毕业了。。压力好大。。是时候为家庭付出。。贡献。。减轻爸爸的负担。。好怕自己做不到。。。因为本人成绩不算好。。只是过关而已。。。谁要请我啊。。哈哈。。这个问题先不要想。。到时再看。。哈哈。。。最近的他爱上街头风。。我也送了他一件。。本人觉得好看。。希望他穿了会更好看。。。哈哈。。他呀。。让我对他又爱又恨。。有时真的气死我了。。我越来越肯定他。。他的一举一动。。都为我着想。。有时就像木头一样。。故意气我。。还是无意。。哈哈。。情趣吧。。哈哈。。以前总觉得一定会有比他更好的。。可是现在我的想法是他是适合我的。。。比他更好并不意味一定是适合。。。找到适合自己的最重要。。哈哈。。。

面具的背后

早安。。第一次那么早写部落格。。最近开始忙了。。很多课业。。世界杯啦。。最近开始玩新浪微博。。。还瞒不错。。可以看到很多大明星哦。。。哈哈。。在这个月。。发生了些开心和不开心的。。。希望不开心的不要再缠绕着大家。。。希望开心的跟着来。。。这个月有两个重大的日子。。。一个是好姐妹的生日。。。还一个是本人的大日子。。。哈哈。。本来还以为贷款来了可以庆祝下。。看可能都要泡汤了。。我还欠人一屁股债叻。。。不好意思下咯。。哈哈。。。最近又发现人的可怕的面具。。人的脸上都带着属于自己的面具。。是真是假。。都分不清楚。。。所说做人要用真心对待，你没有亏欠就可以了。。我以前是这样想。。。总觉得一直这样下去。。吃亏的是我不是对方。。我干吗要这么傻呢。。我承认我自私。。如果我不为自己着想，那谁会呢。。我当然不会这样用真心对待我的朋友。。谁是真心，谁是假意。。大概心理有数。。有些话不说好过说出来。。既然要说，就不要夸张的说，把事情婉转了。。那还有什么意义。。就只是要炫耀还是找个阶梯好让自己下台。。。你心里有数。。。做人也不要太斤斤计较。。。有嘴说人， 又不看看自己。。。我自认我也会斤斤计较的时候。。。可是有些人很就可以当着什么都不知道。。自己有本事就自己来咯。。。不要无事不等三宝殿就可以了。。。

P/S：本人写的不是要伤害或说人是非。。只是把看到的真实写出来。。因为本人不爽。。哈哈

最后附上本人微博的照片。。。

y0gurt

考试。。考试。。最讨厌的时刻。。哎。。没办法。。硬撑咯。。哈哈。。今天不是什么特别的日子。。可是是它的大日子。。它的生日。。现在的它已不属于我。。曾经对你许下的诺言。。我没兑现。。只好在这里告诉你。。生日快乐。。你的不在。。有时还有些不习惯。。习惯你对着我笑。。习惯你对我做过的一切。。我没埋怨你带给我的麻烦。。。你不是人。。你不会表达。。我明白。。。你融入我的生活。。谢谢你陪着我的日子。。。虽然不长。。可是是深刻的回忆。。我不能陪你到最后。。是我的遗憾。。。我不称得上是好主人。。希望你不会怪我把你送走。。。还记得把你送走的时候。。你的表情。。是悲哀的。。好像懂我们又要把你送给人。。对不起。。是我不能好好珍惜你。。我希望现在的主人能好好的爱你。。保护你。。这是我唯一的做的。。。我也希望我是做对了。。偶尔也会探听你的消息。。知道那里的主人对你很不错。。。你也很适应。。我也感到安慰。。你永远都会在我心中。。。

原谅我

我错了。。真的错了。。一错再错。。我真得很懊恼。。以为这是对你最好的选折。。却让你受伤了。。都是我不好。。如果当初你没被我选中。。你现在应该很快乐。。而不是像球一样。。被踢来踢去。。你无从选折。。只有被像我这样的主人摆布。。虽然你很顽皮。。我比谁都清楚。。可是我从来没放弃对你的爱。。我也很舍不得。。只是逼不得已。。你是无辜的。。都是我不好。。我也绞尽脑汁在想办法。。有时真的会埋怨你。。去哪里都不放心你。。怕你孤单。。怕你照顾不好自己。。时时刻刻都会担心你。。有时把你当成负担。。可是当你对着我笑时。。我就忘了对你的埋怨。。觉得你是最可爱的。。我真的很担心。。失去了才懂得珍惜。。真的领悟了。。请你原谅我。。。我很想你。。

懦弱

好奇怪的我。。总是喜欢回到槟城才写部落格。。哈哈。。家。。真是避风港。。真的很轻松。。毫无压力。。爽。。哈哈。。。我这个人很奇怪。。忌妒心满强。。可能对一些看不过眼的人吧。。就觉得双方因该不相上下。。但。。我比别人愚钝。。没她人那么重心机。。这点我认输了。。。哈哈。。。不懂身边的你们有没有发现我这缺点。。。哈哈。。快乐的时光过得特别快。。人总的向前走。。相处的时间还剩半年。。真希望可以开心的度过这时间。。不管未来的我们会是如何。。你留给我的回忆。。总是最深刻。。很多人问我。。未来有何打算。。嗯。。顺其自然咯。。随缘咯。。这潇洒的回答。。其实并不是我真正想要的。。我也明白。。感情没有明确的答案。。我也不敢奢望我的未来会是你。。可是我真的希望我们真的可以继续。。谈一段感情不易。。虽然这是我的初恋。。可是我体会到。。两人的感情。。默契。。体谅。。迁就。。需要时间来培养。。磨练。。他是个好男人。。对我的千依百顺。。容忍。。我真的很感激。。我深怕以后再也找不到像他一样的好男人。。。感觉像世界没有好男人了。。。哈哈。。我真的不想放弃你。。我希望未来的日子也是一样。。。因为你对我太重要了。。刚开始我的想法也和你一样。。可是时间久了。。想法也渐渐改变了。。。或许你并不是这样想。。可能是年龄的差距。。想法的差别。。这才是我想要表达的。。因为住宿问题。。yogurt可能不能和我们同在一起。。我也在想办法怎样安顿他。。家里不太能接受。。他也很依赖我们。。我也知道你也为他的事而难过。。你会很舍不得他。。我总是拿不定主意。。可是我会想办法的。。我们加油吧。。。

人心难测。。小心之好

In fact i should do my assignment now....but m stil lack of that mood to start...haa...so think to blogging....erm...tis few days m alone v my doggy...my partner went beck hometown de...so boring without him...just realize hw important is he...hahaha....erm....las few days...m wrote a phrase on my facebook wall....人心难测。。小心之好......many ppl have different comment...because sum incident make me see the people real faces...m thought m the one who only feel that...but m was right...haha....the people din do anything to me....just some of the characteristic problem....m declare that m din hate the people....just sometime beh tahan the people action....m duno what the purpose the people doing so...because still people privacy....so just leave it....as long did not harm to me...haha...m also the bad people who write people gossip here.....haha....not convenient to write too much here....haha....want any information....pls contact XXX.....wahaha...finish my crap....erm...m will attend utar fbf prom nite....still thinking what to wear that nite...in order to impress leng zai....hahaha....dun tell him yA....hahaha....lolx....just kidding la...dun do that to me ya...m trust u all....haha

3rd bl0g of me....

is me again...haha....edi 2am...althou reli sleepy...bt finish blogging first...haha...t0day my gang have a gals gathering...first i w0uld t0 list out 0ur schedule...haha...4pm went t0 airp0rt fetch carrie...she w0rk in s'p0re n0w...haha...aft that we heading t0 swen hse...visit her mum...h0pe her mum will recover s00n n getting better....aunty thanks f0r ur angpau...haha...act we have a plan t0 eat germany f00d...end 0f it is full hse....s0 we need t0 change plc...s0 we g0 f0r k0rean f00d since s0me 0f them din eat bef0re...haha...we gt a r00m...s0 we have 0wn privacy...haha...we can talk loud or shout whenever we want...haha...the table is full of f00d...yummy...0verall the f00d is n0t bad...haha...we plan f0r nex destination...we went t0 hardr0ck h0tel...my 2nd visit t0 der...diffferent feeling...haha...we saw fireworks...very nice...n hardr0ck h0tel have a nice swimming p00l...i like it much,..haha...aft that we have a crazy f0t0 sh00ting...haha...sh00t here n der...funny p0se...n funny ppl...especially vivien...haha...reli make me laugh till sakit perut...haha...at last...we g0 beck h0me....reli hapii can meet t0gether and crap...is havin fun rite...chinese new year time...dun like ppl wh0 cant adapt it...is 0k...we din f0rce it...but dun act ur lansi face 0k....realy an0ying....like we make u s0 b0ring...beh tahan....h0pefully next time wont have u....haha....

my sad diary

the fourth day 0f my sch reopen...althou jz fourth day...this few days has been a tired day f0r me....my timetable quite flexible...the most is 2class a day...friday n0 class...utar kampar is a nice campus...today my fren as a tour guide...bring us visit every new site of the campus....thx lotzz....haha...tis year oso the last year f0r my studies...oso the last year m spend my time around kampar....oso the last year v my classmate...oso the last year for me n him to stick around...last bt not least....oso the last year 3of us stay togther....m will miss that time....mayb m not a responsible owner....m hv discuss v my family bout yogurt...bt due to limited space....mayb m cnt rare him anymore....m nt yt dcide....sumore m hv sum stupid idea....sell him to the pet shop....bt tis few days stay alone v him...notice at him...m feel unfair to treat him like tis....althou sumtime he naughty enuf to make me angry....but after that m still concern bout him....play v him....he listen to my words...m feel warm...dogs know human language....he like to make himself dirty....but stil cute and funny...he bring laughter and j0y for both of us....m will laugh when c his sum funny action...expression...he like to smile....m like to c he smile....if without us beside him, he will stay happy n smile???m do not want to c him sad...when he c us bec home...he is vry happy enuf...jump to us...like welcum us bec...how can i leave him alone....m always break my promise to him....m think he din angry me...haha...as long m feed him....haha....if i din bought him...maybe he can meet a better owner den me....m luv u yogurt....my another him...m not sure we have a bright future....maybe...maybe not...who knows....however m appreciate everything within u and me....thanks for everything....u are my first love...but not sure izzit the only love....m just hope we can spend more time together.....especially the memorable day for both of us~~~

life 04-01-2010

2010年的第一个贴。。哈哈。。suddenly feel like use english to write it...haha...becoz lazy t0 type chinese...haha...in the m0rning 218am...m stil blogging...bt most 0f the ppl is in their dream...m wish t00...bt couldn't...0r my time edi upside d0wn...used t0 active at nitezz n sleep in the m0rning...luckily my j0b is start 0n aftern00n...stil can wake up...haha...it's reli turn me d0wn whn m cant sleep...m reli wana try t0 change my time t0 n0rmal life due t0 sum reas0n...haha...m can wake up earli t0 d0wnload mv while my br0 sleeping...tis is the main reas0n...haha...m stil left 2weeks h0liday....den my final study year began...m nid t0 wake up earli f0r my m0rning class instead 0f p0nteng....haha...m a gud student....blekk....sumtime m reli 'mi xin' 0f luck...can say depend on it...i tink u guys sure n0e the test luck in faceb00k...m the fans 0f it...m nid t0 test it eveyday t0 n0e hw lucky m i...m n0e it is in accurate n juz a guide...bt m reli believe on it haha...althou he n0t agree v me by trusting tis foolish test...bt he stil helping me by send wat gud luck stone would help to increase my luck 0f the day....thx f0r giving me all the h0pe...haha...m w0rking partime j0b n0w...selling voucher 0f the hair care pr0duct....it c0st rm28...bt m stil nt hit the target 0f 6voucher a day...all bald uncle reject t0 buy fr0m me n gv me such a funny reply...'tis is a trademark f0r me'....'m stil hv hair'....ya...u have....jz a little tiny hair....oh gosh....u rather buy a chair cost f0r rm299 but reject to buy rm28 a voucher which is useful....mayb different ppl different thinking....mayb m n0t a gud marketer to promote the product....but stil have sum gud ppl who willing t0 pay f0r it n have a try....haha...m reli appreciate u p0ng chan me...haha....although the w0rking environment is tough....nid t0 stand wh0le day f0r selling except break time...haha...m 0so happy t0 noe them...liwin and mei xian....another 1 u nt included becoz m nt noe u well...s0rry...u nt 0n my frens list....b0th of them r younger den me...bt m stil can communicate well v them...means m stil y0ung...haha...we help each other on w0rk...n talk much 0n wr0king...until the incharge wana seperate us...haha...vry sien ma...s0 ma chit chat lo...0s0 can0t....2day is liwin last day....nex week m will stand al0ne without her....i tink will b a boring day f0r me...haha....althou m hv n0t much w0rking experience....bt m f0und it that sum time will get "bully" by the olders....we just a promoters...u din briefs us well...is ur fault...bt in other side u blame us talk n0nsense t0 ctm....n dun always sh0w ur lansi face...u n0t b0ss...jz a therapist 0r consultant....u r same like us..."da gong" nia....can u treat us in polite way....we r n0t paying by see ur lansi face....acti0n t0 us....bt becoz 0f m0ney....m tahan u all old w0men...m reli a lotzz 0f things t0 write...haha....in my w0rk plc, a gal older den me 1year....she pregnant n0w...n she hv a kid who 5yrs old...heard sum g0ssip n jus realize she was divorce....m duno wat the reas0n...bt m feel her life was t0ugh...jz 1+++ salary izzit eff0rt f0r 1kids n a n0t yt b0rn bb....m tink is n0t enuf....c0mpare t0 her n me...jz 1yr 0ld difference....0ur life 0s0 different.....m stil enj0ying my life...bt she hv a big burden t0 handle...izzit this is her destiny??0r she choose the wr0ng path??she's the 1wh0 kn0w the answer...m glad that wat m hving n0w....an0ther life experience...haha...the clock sh0ws 317am....m writting f0r 1hr de....haha...hw cum it take s0 l0ng time f0r all rubbish w0rds...haha...actually m jus wana t0 express my feeling wat i saw n experience...n share v u all....h0pe u enj0y it...my l0ngest p0st ever~~gus nitexxx